Saturday, April 30, 2011

Apparently one day this heartache is going to end.
you met me at a very strange time in my life.
It's been 2 months now since I left home.
I need Your strength to feel this weak.
When things feel like they can't get much worse,
keep calm and buy bright red Vans.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Monday, April 25, 2011

If it's true that every heartache makes you stronger, I'm going to be bulletproof one of these days.
Sick of having to be guarded with everyone, sick of acting like nothing hurts, sick of convincing myself I'm over it.
I hate dreaming that you're next to me and waking up alone.
I hate that you let me down, I hate that you broke your promises, I hate that you still have this hold on me, but what I hate the most is that I'd take you back in a heartbeat and all this would still mean nothing to you.
I thought you were decent, I thought you were a man.
Stupid girl, should've known.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

free falling.
so what? I lied.
I lie to me too.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

For the first time, it suddenly doesn't hurt anymore. I'm starting to realize that it really isn't me, it's you. There's no point in crying over, waiting for or dreaming about someone who couldn't care less about me. So from now, I don't care either. Do what you want, by the time you see me again next week I won't even blink at the sight of you. You can deal with the tension between us, because it is no longer my problem. And that is amazingly freeing.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Call it off,
Break my own heart.
Maybe I would've been something you'd be good at,
Maybe you would've been something I'd be good at.
But now we'll never know.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

next time i'll be braver,
i'll be my own savior.
I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I know you already know, but I want you so bad. It's all I can do not to send you a million texts and Facebook messages demanding that you talk to me every second of the day. You still owe me nothing, I need to remember that. But just know that I'm waiting for you, not in a pathetic, I-can't-do-anything-without-you kind of way, but in an I-care-about-you-and-want-to-see-your-cute-face kind of way.
OK, i'm done now.

Monday, April 18, 2011

I know what I should do but I just can't walk away.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

There's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth,
There's still a little bit of you laced with my doubt,
It's still a little hard to say what's going on.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

the feeling of being so sure about something you plan a tattoo about it.
best friends who would literally go to hell and back with you.
I love the city skyline at night.
I love the way he held me.
bus drivers who wave.
sitting in the sun with an ice cold beer.
sleeping in.
I deserve better than him.
there goes the fear again, honey.
I do some of my best work when I'm really alive.
in love.
grab a girl and dance, your number's almost up.
inspired by regrets, make the best of the messy nights.
grace for the restart, everlasting.
I'll give you my whole world before I let you leave,
and it'll still mean nothing.
I want to be okay.
look before you cross.
I used to be wrecked for the ordinary,
now I don't know anything.
let me see what you see, I want to feel everything.
take me back to the start of the chapter, baby let's rewrite the book.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Hello my lovelies!
This beautiful lady here just released her first EP, and it is AMAZING. When I say amazing, I mean amazing.
I wouldn't lie to you.
She also happens to be one of my best friends and the person who's been with me through everything for the past few years.
This will be the best $9(NZ) that you've ever spent..
She's so dreamy.

Monday, April 11, 2011

You don't owe me anything.
"There's a price for every promise you don't keep."
-Clay Walker
I know that even with the seams stitched tightly
darling, scars will remain.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

This is exactly my problem, and with good reason.
planning something similar to this for my inner arm.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

It would be better if you were here.
It would be better if I knew how you felt.
It would be better if I was in your arms.
It would be better if I could tell you
how it feels to want you this much.
It would be better if you knew
what you do to me every time you're around.
It would be better if I was yours.
It would be better if you were mine.

Monday, April 4, 2011

How could I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Fate fell short this time.
I hate feeling like a burden, it is one thing I just can't handle. I hate it when people go out of their way to help me or to do something for me even when I know they want to. I'm currently having trouble walking after an accident on Friday night and I'm finding it so hard to just sit back and let people help me. I gotta stop being so stubborn and independent, just until my big toe resembles a toe again, rather than a giant, bloody, purple balloon.

Saturday, April 2, 2011