Thursday, September 30, 2010

the photo is really bad, but this is my new tattoo.
it says the word
in ancient hebrew characters.
it means "my delight is in her", from Isaiah 62:4.
I love love LOVE it.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

"I will meet you there
hold you tightly and breathe calm
back into your lungs."

You are the one I want.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

'The end will justify the pain it took to get us there'
- Matthew Thiessen
Every word you say to me feels like healing,
Everything about you feels like healing.
Thank you for loving me.

Monday, September 27, 2010

I'm turning 18 on wednesday. Oh my, how scary.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Come and rest your bones with me.
We'll drink coffee and listen to folk music,
we'll drive around like it's summertime and be in love.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Heal the wound,
but leave the scar to remind me of how wonderful You are.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I love getting to town 10 minutes early, parking along the waterfront and spending some time listening to folk music and watching the ocean before I start work.

musing lazily on love..
pondering you.
I don't plan on letting you go,
not even for a little while.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Monday, September 20, 2010

Sunday, September 19, 2010

If you weren't real,
I would make you up.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

right now my life consists of
being constantly sick
and soy milk.
for real, it's not the coolest.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Take your medicine and crawl before you walk
Think it through before
you open you open your mouth to talk
Be an advocate of joy
Find your little heart's desire and
Follow it

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Sunday, September 12, 2010

The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.

Friday, September 10, 2010

all of this can be broken

Thursday, September 9, 2010

all things in good time. all things in good time. all things in good time.
Your heart will mend.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

... & he's got big arms to hold you with.
Friend, there is healing for all your pain. The end of this road is at hand, you will be made whole. I've never admired anyone the way I admire you. I love your story, I love your song, I love your existence. Everything about you is wonderful. I can't help it, I just love you.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Love is a loyalty sworn
Not a burning for a moment.
She's got you high.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Saturday, September 4, 2010

In awe of the timing of the Lord,
His leadership is always perfect.

Friday, September 3, 2010

This is the part where I freak out because I'm insecure and broken and so, so imperfect. I so badly wish I could wipe the past away, I'm sick of feeling ruled by my mistakes. I just want you to show me you care. But if you don't, I understand. And it is no fault of yours.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

You've got so much love in you.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I'm still not very good at liking what I see in the mirror every morning.
I'm not very good at channeling my frustration into something worthwhile.
I'm horrible at keeping my mind in the present.
I love the wrong things far too much and don't give enough time to the things I should.
My heart still hurts, but not as much as it used to.
I always miss people.
I always wish my apologies meant something.
I still sometimes want to self-destruct and when it gets really bad I always know how to isolate myself for a while, but I wish I wasn't like that.
I wish I wasn't so anxious about everything.
I wish I didn't constantly daydream about the boy.
I wish I had the patience to wait for him and not get so ahead of myself.
Mostly I wish I had the ability to stop every once in a while and appreciate what I do have. I wish I could rest easy in the knowledge that it will all work out perfectly and these momentary challenges are merely to encourage me to grow stronger and to fall more in love with my Creator.
He holds my world in His hands.