i'm going to the Gold Coast tomorrow, with my family. to celebrate my parent's 25th wedding anniversary, wow that's a long time. so i'll be gone for a week, i doubt i'll have much time to hang out on blogspot.. but i will be back on friday 8th of jaunuary.. happy new year everyone, have a safe and fun night! love and bless x
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
the morning light is burning bright, it fills my eyes, it makes me feel alive.
it's cold outside, but it's warming fast
i'd take all morning but the moment's passed.
it's just another day, i've seen it all before
but today i won't take it for granted anymore.
it's nothing new, but i'm seeing clearly now from a different view.
if you saw this dawn, this perfect sky
you'd swear never to say goodbye.
it's nothing new but i'm seeing clearly now from a different view.
it makes me feel alive
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
this is stupid, today was the second time in less than two weeks that i've been to the airport to farewell someone back to phoenix, AZ. first it was cody, today it was ross. why do all the cool people ditch? i feel like God's pulling my heart to Arizona... please God...? haha. but seriously. i do hate goodbyes.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
this place was never the same again
after you came and went
how can you say you meant anything different
to anyone standing alone
on the street with a cigarette
on the first night we met
look to the past
and remember and smile
and maybe tonight
i can breathe for awhile
i'm not in the scene
i think i'm fallin' asleep
but then all that it means is
i'll always be dreaming of you
Friday, December 18, 2009
i feel like i'm finally in the process of healing. most of my days are good days now, i'm done with feeling sorry for myself and letting things get the better of me. those were the days when i wasn't happy. now i am happy, more than that i'm joyful now. not every day is good, but i'm learning how to deal with it right. sometimes i wish healing just happened, like i click my fingers and i'm better, my heart doesn't hurt, my scars are gone, my addictions can't hold me, i don't feel darkness. but what would i be learning if it just happened like that, in one moment. i'm being healed from the inside, with the love of my Jesus, the love of my family, the love of my friends. it hurts. it hurts so much. and sometimes i lose enthusiasm, sometimes i just want to slip back. but always someone picks me back up again. i'm blessed, i'm so blessed. my life is good, my life is so good. this year has been the worst of my life but i know everything happened for a reason. "every scar is a bridge to someone's broken heart" right? i know so much more about life now than i did before any of this. i know that people are broken, i know that hate hurts so much and forgiveness is the first step to healing, i know that holding everything in is unhealthy and that telling someone, being vulnerable is the hardest, best thing you can do. noone cares what you look like after you've been crying, they just care that you've cried, in their arms.. i know what best friends means. i know that probably no boy, no matter how charming he is will ever come close to holding my heart again. i know that if i end up in hospital for attempted suicide, with a needle in my arm and a team of psych nurses around me, my parents will buy me a new bed and send me to counselling. but more importantly that my Jesus will cradle me in his arms and restore me until i can stand again, he'll love me even though i've broken his heart, and he'll forgive me even though i fall short. i'm starting to know the meaning of true friendship. i'm waiting for next year, so that i can make up for the mess i've made of this year. all i want is deep relationship with my Jesus. call me stupid, but i've tried living without him, and i almost didn't come out the other end.
bring on 2010.
We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
today is a sad day. i hate saying goodbye to people, i hate seeing people i love get on a plane and move back to Arizona....
have a safe trip, keep being amazing in arizona, come back to us soon.
i'll see you in your hometown in one years time, can't wait.
peace out brother frodo.
going up: 1am missions up the mount, awesome people, spending awesome time with awesome people, house of prayer, gold coast on new years, my rad church, nectarines, summer, lord of the rings parties at ridiculous hours of the morning, mint bubbly chocolate, americans, america, house of prayer internship in february, arizona in november, late late nights, coffee, worship music, being pumped on people, 1&2 samuel, facebook, not topping up, loving people, getting close with people, hope, freedom, candy canes.
going down: Cody moving back to arizona in less than 12 hours, alcohol, lack of dollars, getting up early for work, saying goodbye, missing people, downbuzzed people, boredom, christmas cake.