i'm scared of feeling like this. it's all so new, bear with me.

"My lover is radiant and ruddy, outstanding among ten thousand.."

-Song of Songs 5:10

Somehow my weakness has overwhelmed You

Somehow my weak love has stolen away Your heart.

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The Lord is moving on my heart. He's raising me up for missions, He's setting me apart to partner with Him to see revival in my generation. He's sending me to Harrisburg, Pennsylvania in September 2010 to walk with Him and learn what's on His heart for me, for my ministry and for my nation. I don't know how this is going to happen yet. All I know is that God is the provider of the universe, and that I am called to walk in radical devotion to Him, intimacy with His heart and obedience to His calling. He's calling me to pursue the "one thing" that burned on King David's heart, to "dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple" (Psalm 27:4). I won't be silent any longer, my God is the God who reigns over the earth, He imagined the stars and gives them light. My Lord is righteous and unchanging, His love for me is infinite and eternal. I lay myself down and I say to my Jesus, "I am yours, I live to make your name high".. He hears my cry and He answers me with his loving tenderness. He is mine.

hephzibah

-my delight is in her

"Light me on fire and let the world come watch me burn"

-John Wesley

look at the stars, look how they shine for you.

fire & fragrance

And I shake off these ashes like the dust beneath my feet, and I forsake this world like the world's forsaken me, and I embrace Your mercy 'cause Your mercy set me free

and I arise

I arise

I arise

I wanna be captivated by Your beauty,

Letting Your fiery eyes consume me,

Standing in the midst of all Your glory

This one thing I seek

you know, there actually is something better. you don't have to keep living like this.

"I am not going to apologize for speaking the Name of Jesus, I am not going to justify my faith to them, I am not going to hide the light that God has put inside me. If I have to sacrifice everything, I will."

-Rachel Scott

"You do not have a soul, you are a soul. You have a body." C.S Lewis

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow

Because He lives all fear is gone

Because I know He holds the future

My life is worth the living,

just because He lives

a lot of the time He's the only reason i still get out of bed in the mornings. He's the only reason i haven't quit every day for the past month, I get to spend 4 hours a day with Him and only Him, gazing at his beauty and listening to Him speak His affections over me, whisper in my ear that I am His beloved. and that is what my heart knows is worth waking up for. the one moment I see just a vapor of His face, and I am fully satisfied.

Try as I may to chase another lover I find there is no other. You're the glory and the lifter of my head,

I lift my eyes up.

i'm a little sweet on you.

this world is where I breathe, let it never be called home. oh Lord, save me from myself.