i'm watching through seasons 1&2 of skins for the second time in 3 days. i'm sitting my license in a few days. i start my house of prayer internship in a week. i'm looking for a new job, i'm a damn decent barista if anyone wants to hire me haha. i feel down about myself this past little while, i'm doing it again- not letting people in, lying to them. old habits die hard i guess. i have a driving lesson tomorrow. i just feel quite lonely and ugly and distracted. i'm going to spend the next week in bed with my anxiety and watch criminal minds. sorry-i love you.