i love you, i need you. i'm sorry.

i miss you and i hate it.

but i always say,

it'll be a sad day when a long shower, smooth legs and new nail polish can't make me feel better.

this morning: "i wore your hat to bed last night"

"i wore your heart to bed last night."

hey eden finlay, i love you. that reply made my day.

wisdom.

enough said.

you,

must be the worst thing for insomnia.

today i've been running on one hour of sleep, 5 shots of coffee, and probably too much nurofen. 

i love this. 

i just don't even know.

theme song of my life right now... boston, by augustana.

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said

You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

except my california is tauranga, and my boston... somewhere else. anywhere else. please.

last night i dreamed that i ran away and lived in a little house in the middle of nowhere with a little fireplace. my only neighbours where the people i care about most, and i had zero stresses. it was amazing. then i woke up and it was thursday.

oh conor, how i love you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKV2bHpiH1E

this made my weekend. 

x

the future freaks me out.

i love motion city soundtrack.

but more importantly, i've been looking into nursing as a future career recently. i'm getting quite excited about the whole idea.  

also, less than 5 months till we leave for the philippines. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep (:

top three.

lyds, kels, sammy baby. you three girls mean everything. and my goodness, are all unbelievably good looking.

you,

have no idea how ready i am to get over this. 

and you'll probably never know how much i care, or how much i would've given, or how much you meant.

you promised you'd never do anything to hurt me. well this does. 

i need a magic carpet.

and someone to watch Aladdin with me.

procrastination.

i have an 8 credit history assignment due in tomorrow. but i can't be bothered finishing it. blogs and youtube caught me. late night tonight. wonderful.

carol, and her corectness.

Chrissy-Bee knows. 

i miss you terribly. come visit me and we can talk about how good carol is.

love you.

goodness gracious me.

everything is quite overwhelming at the moment. back to school tomorrow. i don't feel like i've had a proper holiday. i need more time to rest and prepare myself and sort out my life. right now all i want to do is get away. go somewhere quiet and peaceful where i can figure stuff out and recharge. this year is going to be so stressful from here on in. not ready for it. but Jesus provides me with the people and the time and space i need to get myself under control. 

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:30-31

praise the Lord for his promises huh.

bless x

my list

probably more than you'll ever know.

rainy days.

it's raining, so i thought people should see this beautiful picture of my beautiful friend Kelsey.
isn't she just the sweetest little thing?

my girls.

we had a sleepover last night, kelsey and lydia and me. it was wonderful. we did fun stuff like eat melted gelato with our fingers and roll down the big hill down the road and talk about how we hate boys and lydia played us her songs and we took lots of photos and danced to westlife and made a sheet hut that we slept in and it was very uncomfortable, but totally worth it.



kelsey and lydia are beauties. i love them (:

the killers changed my life.

last wednesday was the best night of my life. the killers were out of this world amazing. everything about their live show was perfection. better than on cd even. i've been buzzing ever since, and all i've been listening to is their music. brandon flowers is a beautiful human being, with a crazy amazing voice. yes, it was wonderful. you should all be gutted you missed it.  

we'll all float on....

recently this song called float on, by modest mouse, has been changing my life. i wake up with it in my head every morning, and whenever something crap happens, it pops into my head. 

I backed my car into a cop car, the other day.
Well he just drove off, sometimes life's ok.
I ran my mouth off a bit too much, oh what did I say.
Well you just laughed it off, it was all ok.

And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on any way, well.

A fake Jamaican took every last dime with a scam.
It was worth it just to learn some sleight-of-hand.
Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands.
Good news will work its way to all them plans.
We both got fired on exactly the same day.
Well we'll float on good news is on the way.

And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, alright.
Already we'll all float on.
No, don't you worry, we'll all float on.
Alright, already, we'll all float on.
Alright, don't worry, we'll all float on.

Alright alright we'll all float on.
Alright already we'll all float on.
Alright don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy.
We'll all float on...alright. Already we'll all float on.
Alright already we'll all float on, ok.
Don't worry we'll all float on.
Even if things get heavy, we'll all float on.

Alright already we'll all float on.
(Alright)
Don't you worry we'll all float on.
(Alright)
All float on alright....

the greatest love.

a couple of years ago one of my best friends Evanni, made me this painting. it's had pride of place on my wall since november 2007, and i often just sit on my bed and reflect on it, and what it represents. 

The Greatest Love. the love that Jesus Christ has for every single imperfect, sinning one of us, the love that he hung on the cross for, even though he was pure and blameless. the love that he offers to us, even though we fall short every single time. and the love that offers us a personal relationship with our creator. 

"but he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our inquities, the punishment that brought us peace, was upon him. and by his wounds we are healed" -Isaiah 53:5

this is the reason for easter. it's not about the bunny. it's about the Risen Son of God, and his offering of forgiveness to all mankind.

think about it (: